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NEW LIVEJOURNAL; 15minutehero
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[23 Dec 2004|01:27am] |
things are better left said in a diary.
consider yourself lucky if i tell you.
a temporary goodbye to livejournal and have a merry christmas and happy new year ya'll.
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[04 Dec 2004|12:08am] |
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and thanks to the coolest, william wong we need to chillaxing one day. *pinky promise*
i am good, for now.
finished food project, today. props to my ladies, laura and jackie.
what's happening on sunday, huda? talk to me.
must go shopping to do some christmas shopping. don't i say that every weekend?
DEC 28 FOR SURE, GUYS! NO MORE BRACES FOR ME! I CAN'T STOP FEELING MY BRACES FREE WISDOM TOOTH! does that make sense?
I LOVE YOU, BRANDON FLOWERS. =)
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[02 Dec 2004|06:33pm] |
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izzo/the end - lp + jz |
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lisa just called, thanks babes. i love you.
i'm okay, really. i just need some time to take this all in, that's all.
thanks for caring, Y'ALL!
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| @!#&$#!@%^!%!^#^&*$!%^#! =D |
[23 Nov 2004|05:27pm] |
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Avril Lavigne - Things I'll Never Say Lyrics
I’m tugging at my hair
I’m pulling at my clothes
I’m trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I’m staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I’m searching for the words inside my head
[pre-Chorus]
(Cause) I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it
Yeah
[Chorus]
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you... away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say
It don’t do me any good
It’s just a waste of time
What use is it to you
What’s on my mind
If ain’t coming out
We’re not going anywhere
So why can’t I just tell you that I care
[pre-Chorus]
[Chorus]
What’s wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble
Like I’ve got nothing to say
[pre-Chorus]
Yes I’m wishing my life away with these things I’ll never say
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you...away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say
These things I’ll never say
you make me have this sudden rush of happiness, and i love it. BUT, what the hell are you doing? is this real or just your nice-ness? or are you just playing with me? your killing me. make up your mind, cause i made up mine. JESUS CHRIST, i parnoid myself.
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don't get me wrong, i'm f-ing happy. =D
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[04 Nov 2004|02:38pm] |
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someone's watching over me - hilary duff |
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the gloomy day has really brought everyone's spirits down. =( poor guys. just know that i am always here for you, even though i can't be your fairy godmother and grant you every wish. i am a friend to lead a helping hand, however i could attempt to be superwoman. =) CHEER UP! at least THE OC is on and tomorrow is late start and early dismissal. =)
i better start working my ass off now, LATER DAYS!
PS if your not busy tonight, here's something for you to think about. WHY DOES EVERYONE HATE HILARY DUFF?!
PSS i am currently obsessed with DEWEY from MALCOM IN THE MIDDLE! i'm gonna marry him, even if he is my brother's age. HE'S SO FUCKING ADORABLE! =D
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| HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUDA! |
[03 Nov 2004|10:38pm] |
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i don't wanna know - new found glory |
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^^^^ i love that song, because it's good.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUDA, YOU FAG! i hope you have a good one. =) love yah.
i was watching america's next top model and kelly was right. norelle is really starting to remind me of me and it's scary how much we have in common. thumbs up, girl.
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THE OC's season premiere is back on ctv tomorrow at 8! and THE AMAZING RACE series airs on tuesdays at 9 pm beginning with a special two-hour premiere on November 16! DON'T MISS OUT, LOSERS!
i love tv, i can't wait. +) (no, its not a mistake, it's a new face. HOW COOL IS THAT?!)
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| HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHE-ELLE! |
[29 Oct 2004|10:13pm] |
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no guys, this isn't another one of those "i hate life" entries.
i love fridays, don't you? today was definitely a fun leap into one the best weekends, but also a mad rush to make it to the "homework finish line". and it's a good question you ask why i am still on LJ. you'll see.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHE-ELLE! for the blind who haven't seen the title up there. i was worried this morning i would look like a fool in my "witch" costume and if you were one of the many few who were questioning about my hat, SOMEONE STOLE IT! haha, just kidding. my hat is like the size of cn tower, so that explains a lot.
history always gets me going in the morning, especially if you have tetzlaff smack right on period one. he's hilarious. photography is always a "chilling" time. people walk into different classrooms disturbing their friends or study science, which is what i did because i didn't want to take another roll of pictures. besides i have my own camera at home. science was okay, we had our test today which i was nervous about at lunch. it turned out okay, well at least i HOPE it did. i don't wanna jinx it now, do i? math was the same as every class, we took notes, more notes and did i mention we took more notes? i sat beside minna today, so it wasn't AS boring.
after school on friday afternoons are the bomb, especially with jackie, lisa, and miche. i was about to head home right, but lisa convinced me, with linked arms to go to kennedy to play floor hockey. i had to admit i didn't feel the vibe to get into active mode. we got there and i instantly felt like a giant in the school, the ceilings were low and the kids were like up to my knee. it was so cute, yet jackie was teasing every kid she saw in her way. haha, you bully. we got to the gym doors and knowing mr.lucas, he didn't show. but i would have not guess there was volleyball practise, going on. after that plan flopped, we went for pizza at the really cheap, dirty place, yet close pizza place, but those after school pizza days are over. the store hit rock bottom and has closed down. *tear* so, we walked across the street, to shell, and if it didn't hit you yet, shell the gas station. we loaded up on junk food, i swear to god we're all gonna have cativites before trick or treating. hahaha, i love my friends, you guys are such homos'. we headed to michelle's house and it was hilarious shit. BECAUSE WE WATCHED SABRINA THE TEENAGE WITCH! just kidding, the fun started when we were in her bedroom. if your thinking horny, your right.
everyone was high or drunk or both, i think it was the nestea and chocolate. see now, you don't need alcohol to do this, kids. it all started with the words, "let's get personal," said jackie. and we did, TOO PERSONAL.
lisa and her "experience" with make-up, i was her victim. i look like a hoe with make-up.
lisa scaring me every two seconds with her evil BOO. i think it was revenge, because i bailed out on the bethune haunted house. i'm a pussy. SO WHAT?!
jackie stradling me again, at least it wasn't in public this time
i stradled and drooled on jackie while lisa and miche held her hands down, all this put to apply eye shadow on her.
"perfume world war 1" started today between the countries; jackie, with no allies vs. lisa, miche, and sammy
remaining in "shuting up" mode while miche was on the phone with her grandma. sorry miche, we went from being insane to really insane
jackie stuck under miche's bed, lisa's head getting stuck and me fitting right under and inhaling all the dust bunnies. guess what, THERE ARE NO MONSTER UNDER THE BED! YES!
lisa and our monkey dance with the sexy gorilla in the middle
raiding michelle's closet and sorting out outfits for her. jackie and her difficulties in matching clothes
while i layed on the bed; lisa shoving a glow stick up my vagina and jackie using her finger...
miche's bobbie dress, they had bra cups
lisa's 2 second dance every 5 seconds
lisa's horny side and straddling everyone. jelously started it.
the gay hogwarts sorting hat and jackie wanting to fuck ugly draco malfoy
me playing with the nestea popcan opener. A, B, C, D, D, D, D, D, D, D, D, D, D, D...
EXCELLENT day. i can't wait until halloween. =)
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[22 Oct 2004|09:10pm] |
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"we do things together, in this family." bullllshittt. i'm having family problems, again. i think we need a counselor. as if school, friends and boys aren't hard enough. i'm only a kid, leave me alone. i think one day i'm gonna have an emotional break down.
you weren't suppose to know. saying hi to you was my one year old goal, not a week. you told me not to worry about it, things won't be weird with you. thank you, but the "fading technique" isn't working. getting over you is like mission impossible.
and to the friends that care oh so much about me, thank you and sorry. thank you for all those words of encouragement and sorry i've been disapointing you with my sad faces and teary eyes.
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[21 Oct 2004|07:37pm] |
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don't judge me. you don't even know half of my story.
the grade 9 boy's death, i still can't get over. i feel for you, boy. i wish i knew you and perhaps things would have been better.
you didn't have to take that stupid exit in life.
you didn't have to bottle up all that pain inside.
you are happy, now that you are in heaven.
you can finally rest in peace.
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[19 Oct 2004|11:00pm] |
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STACEY; i can't even remember how i met stacey, but it was definitely one of the greatest things that has ever happened to me..................BRB
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[19 Oct 2004|10:02pm] |
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i was reading orlena's thoughts on asianavenue and talking to stacey. it made me really think.
it sucks how some people can just have it all; looks, smarts, personality, talents. i sucks even more when i have none of that, not even one or the other.
Looks; i hate how LOOKS are so important. its so judgemental. someone can't even go around looking ugly for a day and not be bullshited about. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, GIVE IT UP! stacey's add i must agree. i'm sorry i can't look pretty 24/7 for you, or even for a minute. alksdjf;asdfl;kasdlfkal;ldsa; you're an arrogant blinded person if you believe that the people in your magazines are the pinnacle of beauty. if you're pretty, that's awesome for you, don't flaunt it don't abuse it be grateful for it, so many other people don't have the gift of phyiscal attractiveness.
Smarts; im not smart. everyone has an honour except for me. stacey's add i'm not honours either Sammy...and i never will be. I threw away any form of intelligence i had many years agoooo =) GO BEING SO BORED IN GRADE 2 that i didn't pay attention throughout grade school
Personality; i feel like im invisible. i thought i was nice. i thought i was close to being everybody's best friend. at least i tried to be good at something, but i failed. stacey's add i love you sammy, i don't know anyone sweeter to me then you. you're always there for me when you shouldn't be, i haven't done anything to deserve your friendship and still you continue to give me this gift of attention that every human being craves. i hope i am being a good enough friend and returning the love.
Talents; i have no talent. im not good at anything. stacey's add nor i...-struggles with the fact taht she's talentless every single day which leads to the greater issue of being 'special'-
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?!?! i am invisible, i rather be off dead. no one would even notice
stacey's add i would notice if you were dead Sammy, i'd bawl my eyes out, i'd hate you if you died. i would never forgive you for leaving me.
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[17 Oct 2004|08:21pm] |
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i'm sorry i got you guys worried over my last entry, i think i was pmsing. ON TO A HAPPY NOTE, today was a HAPPY DAY. =) yes. thanks jackie, IT WAS OUR FIRST DATE. =) i woke up early this morning to finish my homework and MADE SURE I WENT TO THE MOVIES THIS TIME. sorry about that, i hope i made up for it today. =) we watched raise your voice and it made me cry. *tear* i'm not a very emotional person, actually i don't know. i cried in finding nemo. SHUT UP. =) overall, it was a good movie, GO WATCH IT IF YOUR HAVING A BAD DAY/WEEK/MONTH/YEAR. =) it helps. ANYWAYS i got home and i finished ALL my homework. im the real genius here. =)
UH OH, I AM HOOKED ON USHER SONGS. THANKS AARON AND ELISSA. =)
to lisa + jess; i know you guys are feeling on the down side, but don't ever give up. the dark clouds over you will soon disappear and the sun will shine. i love you, babes and i am always here for you to catch you when you fall. unconditional love goes to the both of you, *MUAH*. =)
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[16 Oct 2004|12:54am] |
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the bitter pill - dashboard confessional |
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so i guess this is the best time to use live journal, when all your friends have had just about enough you talking about a guy won't talk to you or whatever. SHUT THE FUCK UP SAMANTHA CHOW. no one wants to hear your bullshit.
one day you wanna know EVERYTHING and the next day you are shutting me off. what the hell? im sick an tired being nice to everyone. im sick and tired of being your second choice. im sick and tired of life.
i won't be suicidal.
i won't be suicidal.
i won't be suicidal.
i won't be suicidal.
i won't be suicidal.
i won't be suicidal.
the bitter pill - dashboard confessional
"It's wearing off
And it's leaving you
With such a heavy heart
And a head to match.
The bottle is waiting
The cap is twisted begging to be Used
And so are you"
SIR; stop confusing me. stop playing me. make up your bloody mind. don't say it's okay when it's not.
SORRY, BUT ITS MY TIME TO COMPLAIN.
i seriously love you to death, william wong. you are like my best friend. *pinky promise*
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[15 Oct 2004|09:49pm] |
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LISA LOOK I HAVE LIVE JOURNAL, THANKS TO THE BEAUTIFUL JESSIE WESSIE. =) NOW ADD ME LOSERS. how do you work this thing?
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[15 Oct 2004|09:44pm] |
test test test.
check check check (HAHAHA ANNOYING DUDE AT ASSEMBLY BUT ANYWAYS).
FINALLY SAMANTHA HAS LIVEJOURNAL.
(this is Jessica hehe)
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